tiny warrior ❤️
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I’m learning so much from this little being. Experiencing animal medicine is so powerful as you may find that what they are teaching you is quite different than what you find in books. Hummingbird medicine is often linked to sweetness, joy and happiness, as such when I was given my spiritual name, Amrita, sweet nectar, I was annoyed and disappointed. I don’t actually like being seen as sweet. But if you have the distinct honor of sitting with the hummingbird it becomes quickly apparent that these little ones are about fierce boundaries. They are by far the fiercest creatures I’ve ever witnessed. I’ve watched in awe as these sweet little fairies protect their territory and guard the nectar that is sacred to them. I’ve watched in awe as two or more hummingbirds dance through the air like little fighter jets. I laugh a little to myself, how these tiny warriors were ever associated with lightness and joy.
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Sometimes I’ve felt that my appearance of sweetness undermines the depths from where I have come, what I have lived through. Strangely, I’ve struggled with that. That being seen as sweet or nice betrays my emotional and spiritual depth and potency. As I spend time with the hummingbirds I am honored by the medicine that appearances and how we are perceived are often vastly out of our control and there is a reason for that. Look at her! She is supremely aware. She doesn’t care if her medicine is misconstrued because in her tiny being is the real truth. It is that truth that carries her medicine. It’s in her fierce, wild beating heart. Just as ours is. ♥️
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🎶 la luna @ajeetmusic
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Yesterday I woke up raw and achy and I followed my heart to the ocean. Maybe because my mom knew the ocean would heal me. I got lost in all that blue. I played, I dug my feet into the sand and swam like a mermaid in the sea. I also thought a lot about grief. It’s true, grief has an ebb and flow just like the ocean moving through the years, changing through days, hours, even minutes.
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Relationships with all the things: sadness, pain, joy, they are strung together by a thread of ebb and flow. There is no absolute. There is only an ever moving pulse and nothing exemplifies this as beautifully as nature does. Because, well, we are nature. We are part of it all.
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Today I sit outside on my deck with a glass of wine. It’s scorching hot. I’m looking at the sun dance through the trees, and all of a sudden there it is. Bliss. And it won’t last forever any more than the intense grief did yesterday. And I guess that’s really it. Just this. Just this moment and just this beautiful, painful, blissful life.
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It doesn’t seem right to say Happy Birthday anymore. It hasn’t since you passed. You left the physical world when you were 60. Today you’d be 72 years old. I’m not happy about any of it. I can celebrate that you were born and that by some force of divine magic you were my mother. Some years are easier than others. This year feels hard. I’ll admit a lot of what I miss is selfish. I miss your support in my life. I miss that at all times you were on my side. I miss being adored so unconditionally. When you looked at me I felt like the smartest, funniest, most beautiful person in the world. I don’t feel the same in the world without you. I miss how you were the only person that truly made me laugh. I never imagined I would have to face how sad it would be sitting at kitchen tables without being in tears, unable to breathe, with you laughing by my side. But I also just miss you. I miss you. I miss your face, your smile, your beauty. I miss your care, your kindness, your talent, your sense of self, your braveness, your strength, your sense of humor. I miss you mama everyday. But today I miss you more. #imissyou
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So ask your ♥️ what matters most and attend to that.
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As I sat outside this evening to read the prayers and messages that accompanied my morning’s oracle cards, my heart opened to spirit even more. “What the caterpillar calls the end, the master calls the butterfly.” 🦋 Amazingly, another layer to my dream last night is revealed to me. I dreamt of feeling the pain the caterpillar experiences as it becomes the butterfly. Coincidence? Synchronicity?
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Full moon shines her brilliant light. I am humbled and in awe of what is given when we connect our heart to divine mother earth. I am in awe of how divinity seeks to witness us when we witness divinity in the earth, in each other, and especially in ourselves.
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Last night I dreamt of a butterfly. Actually I dreamt of the physical pain of that becoming. Caterpillar to butterfly. It was a sensation that was uncomfortable, poignant and of course, needed medicine.
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As I began my full moon reading this morning, I asked, May I come to you in the Light? I realize the eclipse energy is asking many to go into shadow, do the deep painful inner work. Transformation is rarely easy or comfortable.
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When I pulled this card, I received my answer. Of course, I don’t know why it still surprises me. The title of this card is “Stand in the Light.” So I’m sharing this as a reminder to those that have done the deep transformative work of the heart. You can also celebrate in the pure joy of becoming the butterfly. You must! We do not have to focus on the pain that transformed us. We can bless it and ask to feel light and the Light again. From my experience, light is sometimes as scary as darkness. It is a farther fall. You know?
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I am sending this full moon message from my heart to yours, beautiful butterfly.
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“What nurtures and nourishes you, what feels good for your heart, body and souls, is what also protects you.”
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My dad has been gone twenty years and it’s been that long since I’ve seen his brother. Although I believe my dad knows and adores my son and I’m blessed that my son looks and reminds me so much of him, I’ve never seen my dad joke with him, hug him, kiss him, love on him.
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Today, I gathered with my father’s family for a very sad goodbye, but there was also a beautiful new hello.
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Seeing my son with my father’s brother was a soul healing I didn’t even know I needed. It was seeing a piece of my father with his brother again. It was seeing a piece of my father with my son. I was looking at the face of love. It was blurry and so clear. Bittersweet moments of pure, fucking eternal unconditional love. My heart is so full of joy. I am humbled by the divine’s benevolent ability to give us what we need even as our hearts break in longing for those we love. So today, I bow to life. I bow to family. To my ancestors. To love. To my sweet son, the bridge. Thank you.
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