Happiness is...
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Stacking wood for hours outside on a cold blue bird day. Coming into a warm house and sitting on my favorite chair, by my favorite window, with my favorite holiday beer and my favorite kitty (aka guru, angel, best friend, healer, soulmate).
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This was only one side of you. You were also deep, profound and so kind. In my entire life, I never ever heard you speak a bad word about anyone. And even though we butted heads, and I can still hear you saying to me, “Amy, I just can’t tell you ANYTHING,” I think you knew we were more alike than I really understood. 😂 You were so fun, extroverted, and unselfconscious- ugh, I wanted to be just like you. I also think you spent most of your life trying to wield your wild in order to be a supportive husband, friend, father. You probably don’t have much need for your Harley where ever you are, but it was your wild spirit that I loved most about you. And I know you are free. I know. I know by the way your energy feels when you visit me. You were an enigma to me. A church going, beer drinking, drum playing, Willie Nelson lover. You regarded your church peeps, motorcycle crew, and the prisoners you ministered to the same. Once a week on your Harley to visit the prison, #johnnycash style. You had this little notecard that said, “Jesus would have ridden a Harley.”
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You were a rebel. You were so authentically you. You were special. There aren’t enough like you. After you passed, mommy would say a lot to me, “Oh Amy, you’re just like your father.” It was the highest compliment. I loved that I reminded her of you and it was what kept pushing me to face fear and my own wild heart. Well I am a #sagittariusrising. In hindsight, dogma is the only thing that separated us. But I know now, even that’s not true. We both passionately believed what we believed and wouldn’t back down. I love you today - the day you came into the world - and every damn day. There is so much more. But you know that. And I hear you now, but you know that too. #always
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And just a side note, when I was out and about today I thought of buying #amoretto for my dad! I hadn’t even remembered it was his birthday yet. Just a little story to remind us to make #offerings and that our ancestors really do tell us what they want 😂
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I really don’t know how it works, how I got lucky enough to be this boy’s mom. I don’t know if he chose me before he arrived here. I don’t know if it was all the acupuncture needles and herbs I drank while he was in the womb, praying to get one little being to stick with me beyond 8 weeks. This one did. This kid’s heart is strong. He gets me this kid. He knows me. Today is not a particularly special day, just another ordinary magical day in the woods with my favorite person in the world. I feel so lucky. I don’t want to hear how it’s all going to change when he gets to be a teen. Right now he is the kindest, funnest, most rad person I know! In the video you can hear him excited for me that I held my handstand. That is exactly who he is. I adore this kid. ♥️
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Also was so happy to post a picture that didn’t involve wings (well, that you can see anyway 😉).
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She was just waiting for me to open the door. So many long months of looking for her in the trees, longing for her. Knowing, KNOWING that she was waiting in sacred patience for me to come into heart wisdom. Doubting myself, allowing myself to be hooked again and again into turmoil that is not real and which does not belong to me.
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Today I experienced an initiation of massive trust. I felt her wings fluttering inside my entire being. As I drove home, up my hill she told me I never have to look for her again. She will always come. She is always with me.
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I walked inside my house feeling absolute peace and there out the window she was waiting for me. She was just waiting for me in the tree with her deep sight and radical presence. Pure love. Homecoming.
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Today I opened the heart door. An experience too beautiful to even process in this moment. I am honoring it here because so many of you are my Spirit family. I am Honoring all those who walk the path of Owl medicine. I am Honoring all the brave wise spirit warriors who do life differently, honestly. I am Honoring all those that still believe in wonder and awe. I am Honoring all those still willing to believe in pure love.
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