Morning ☀️ I just wanted to talk about trees.
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The morning after returning from retreat, as I was preparing a candle, some sunflower seeds and lavender to make a small offering to the trees, I began singing a song that apparently my heart wrote for the trees. My brain connects through writing, that is how I express, it is not a normal occurrence for me to break out in song. It felt beautiful in a thousand ways.
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Then I was filled with the rush of judgement again. Darn it, didn’t I burn that in the fire! But by now I trust that not everything I feel is actually mine. It’s overwhelming to feel what people feel about me from a distance sometimes. It’s difficult enough to be fearless in the Spirit that has spoken to me since I was young. And it wasn’t until this weekend that I remembered how much I detested confession and how often I challenged the nuns who told me it was impossible that I am pure. What are we doing to the children when we tell them they have sins instead of telling them they have power!!!! Feel the difference in that vibration. Please! I often challenged my father with my interpretation of God and I was relentless. Which by the way, we are in perfect alignment now that he is on the other side ♥️.
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But back to trees. As I was singing and playing my drum I felt, how bizarre it is that so many people DON’T honor tress. I am not the weird one!!!! It is not an accident that we cannot survive without trees! They are literally the essence of the grand creative design. How can you NOT see that God is in the tree rooted directly in and fed by the MOTHER. They are the breath of the divine.
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Well, these are my thoughts this morning about trees 🌲.
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I took this shot in Hot Springs NC before the ritual retreat in the Blue Ridge mountains honoring Mother Earth. And yes, this was on point retreat vibes! Sweet Mother fed me in ways beyond my expectation and in ways still unfolding.
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The last day the Owl was insisting that I share her medicine and as I sat there with a lump in my throat I knew I had to do it after all she’s done for me. Last night after a taxi ride, two flights and a long car ride home as my foot touched the driveway I heard the “hoot hoot hoo hoo hoot hoot hoo hoo.” My heart expanded with utter humility that she would welcome me home. It reinforced the promise that I made on retreat when my mask was thrown into the sacred fire. I refuse to ever carry the energy (guilt, shame) of a paradigm that supported a third grade girl sitting in a box every week confessing her sins to a man on the other side of the screen. I gave her back every drop of her sacred, fierce innocence. I gave her full power. And my goodness, did I have a reminder of powerful innocent spirit this weekend @mikayla.rigsby ♥️ Thank you.
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Owl medicine is less mind, more heart. Less thought, more intuition. Less control, more wild instinct.
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Medicine was unearthed in me this weekend and as I carry the thread of sweetness from my hummingbird totem, I now honor the fierceness of the Owl.
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Thank you Liv and @kontomble_medicine for calling me to you this weekend. It’s hard for me to even understand this deep soul love I have for you. You are an offering more potent than a million bottles of vodka spit into that fire. I hold deep space in my heart as you go forward in your work.
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The #mountaintoseatrail in Asheville reminded me so much of the woods I used to walk in when I was young. When I saw these roots, I stopped in my tracks. They reminded me of my mother’s hands. I was always fascinated by her veins. I know that sounds odd. But I would sit with her hands, hold them, stare at them and literally run my fingers over her veins. As I sat with mother’s earths veins, I kept hearing the word lifeblood. Lifeblood. When I looked it up it’s defined as ‘animating spirit’ ‘driving force’ and I thought, Yes! The soul, the divine spark and pulse that pushes us into the unknown. My weekend retreat with beloved seer @kontomble_medicine technically starts today. But my heart said yes to this experience after my first session with Liv and the Kontomble. I didn’t know how or when it would come to fruition. Despite fears, nerves, and when I was in the airport facetiming my son every cell in my body wanting to get in a taxi and go back home instead of stepping on that plane. It was so uncomfortably intense, but clearly not as intense as what is pulling me forward. Lifeblood.
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I think it’s being present to tiny little things that assists us with sacred surrender. “You are being asked to Trust, to gently lay to rest the suffering that has been.”
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I was promised there was sweetness on the other side of it, I just didn’t know how tricky it would be to sip the nectar without guilt. To be present to my joy and peace and not allow the world to seduce me into more suffering. Because there is always suffering, yes. So much. My heart has broken for it, as all our hearts have. But there is also so much love. So much life. Everything in nature around us expresses its divine and innate right to just be with what is.
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“...the workings of the Great Beloved, so creative and crazed with love for you that all circumstances of your life down to the tiniest detail, are evoked out of love.”
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There was a time when believing this brought so much pain. Having faith made a fool out of me, I thought. Spiritual bypassing was dangerous and deceptive. But after so long I see that trust is not what I thought at all. It is allowing the unfolding of life, good and bad, to move through me in a way that is so profound and real and uncomfortable I can barely stand it. It is allowing yourself to go through it, yes. You must go through it. But also allowing yourself the grace to come out of it. To shine your light again. This has been the hardest. For me anyway. To say, i’m going to be at peace for a while, I’m going to cry because I am so happy, so blessed, so grateful.
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I’m quite horrible at making small changes in my life for my well being. I’m queen bee 🐝 at grand gestures like going on a 10 day fast. I’m so present to my spiritual life, prayer, nature, oracle, being, writing, but I am often lost when it comes to what my body really needs from me. So last night in bed I wrote down what spirit was asking for my body. The message was that my body wants to be invited into the ritual. Letting the body pray as the spirit does. Embodying my spirit in my actual BODY. This was an aha! moment for me.
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So here I am. Small goal #1 - nightly foot massage with essential oils. Tonight I used the most heavenly vetiver from @vetiver_farms_hawaii and then 10 minutes of #viparitakarani, legs up against the wall, as taught by beautiful yogini @taoporchonlynch100 who is 100 years young.
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This pose is said to help the immune system. Ancient yogis believe this pose reverses the flow of the sacred precious fluid #amrita (nectar of immortality) and may have the power to cure all that ails you.
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#selfcare #ritual #legsupthewall #essentialoils #vetiver #thebodymatters #vessel #footmassage #immunityboost #yogini #embodyyourbody #bodyprayer #healthyimmunesystem #spiritspeaks #loveyourbody
As I sat this morning in prayer before I began my Sunday reading I remembered my dream from last night. My father was driving the car and I was in the passenger seat and my favorite song from when I was just a very little girl came on the radio. Wildfire. In my dream I began to cry as I sang the words as I always did when I was a kid and it came on the radio. Hearing the first few notes would move me so deeply and everyone knew when that song came on we needed to listen.
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I didn’t sleep well the rest of the night. The song refused to leave my consciousness but by the time I woke up I had forgetten about it.
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Before I begin a reading I always invite my ancestors of the highest light and wisdom, and I knew when the dream came back to me in prayers there was a distinct message that was going to connect to my reading. As I began pulling cards it became very simple and clear. Sometimes oracle and tarot for me are not about what each card says individually, but rather an emerging theme. This was one of those times. Father, Father, Father all around me and wishing me inner peace and love. What can be more beautiful? Thank you beloved Father for such a sweet and beautiful visit. Thank you for always coming through to me in the most precious way with language I understand. In spirit you always meet me exactly where I am, honoring who I am. I know why you do it and I know you know what it means to me. I listened to Wildfire this morning as I did my reading and am filled with such overwhelming love for you. Always, your daughter.
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And thank you @michaelmartinmurphey Wildfire is still the most magical and beautiful song ever. It still speaks a lot to the young girl in me.
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I’ve been searching for years. Years! For a female diety to grace my sweet tree. When Buddha was gifted to me on Mother’s day, I honored what that gift meant to me: presence, the breath, awakening. #zen #justthis
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But it ignited in me the search for the Goddess again. In a heartbeat I found her. Lakshmi. Beautiful Lakshmi. Goddess of beauty, abundance. What I love, besides her sweetness, is that she is holding an empty bowl. Just a simple reminder of the importance of offering. Offer water and seeds. Offer flowers. Offer your awareness. Offer your heart.
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It speaks volumes that the Goddess of abundance (spiritual and material) is often depicted making an offering. In her bowl is usually an oil lantern. When Lakshmi is seen without her bowl, she is usually accompanied by... Yep, an owl 🦉 No wonder I connected with her! I didn’t even realize this until she was at my tree, her bowl filled with flowers. I humbly believe this is how Spirit reinforces and supports our connection to life. Through the earth plane.
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Often times I have deeply feared being judged by this. But the reality is, my reality is, the Divine does not have to be invisible. The Divine is expressive and reaching out to us every single day in so many ways. #synchronicity
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I rarely do throwback pics, but a fellow ashram friend from India literally just sent these to me and looking at them made me so happy. I wanted to post them because I recently wrote here about remembering how sad I felt there at times, and how I was homesick and came home to find out my mother was very sick and died 7 months later. Losing her so fast like that, after being away for so long, tainted my trip and obscured my memory as well. Grief can do that. I came home a bright shiny yogini and after finding out my mother was sick, I didn’t touch my mat for a lonnngggg time. I couldn’t. Anything that allowed me to feel in my body was off limits. So, it was red wine and cigarettes for this girl. That’s how I coped. Of course now I have my own little practice again and I quit the cigarettes many years ago. These photos remind me how freakin happy I was there too. How epic it all was. How the experience was like so so so many things in life. Bittersweet.
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This is my attempt at firefly pose and you know I have to try this again #tbt India 2005
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#yoga #india #rishikesh #amrita #sweetnectar #tittibhasana #fireflypose #yogatraining #yogini #ashramlife #tajmahal #himalayas #spiritualname #thankyouindia
